it's a place where no amount of numbing or distraction takes away from my personal reality/hell.
it's a place where all the best people receive all the worst things.
I am feeling pitiful, yet undeserving of any type of pity.
I am feeling pathetic, yet unable to accept any kind of kindness that stems from unsolicited pathos.
I did my best all day. I really did.
but i think it looked more like a deplorable succession of weak efforts and an unmade to-do list.
the bitter reality of all that's going on with me is that some days simply feel like this.
and there's just nothing that can be done about it.
I can't really muster a perky/thankful/hopeful/any form of positive sign off tonight.
but here's my inimitable effort at such.
"this too shall pass" ....